Walking home from the BART station I had a million to things to say. Now, not much more than an hour latter, my mind is a blank. Where does it all go? These brilliant witty things we come up with when there is no paper, no keyboard, to record them? Inspiration can be a cruel thing at times.
At any rate, brilliant knitting progress continues. I am stuck on the train this week, as the shuttle to work isn't running (stupid ski trip...). It's not so bad, for all that it takes me two hours to get to work, and another two to get home. At least it gives me time to knit and read and sort of unwind myself after a long day. And time to think about things. Lots of time to think.
Very little in the way of work got accomplished today, but I did have a rather amusing conversation with a couple of people who stayed, one of whom is more or less my boss. The other guy, L., works with a bunch of the hardware engineers. Somehow we got on the subject of geeks and dating, and he said that if I was looking for someone to just let him know what I wanted in the way of a boy and he would see what he could find. We decided we needed a boyfriend design doc. Rather odd, but possibly not the worst thing I've ever considered. If I can't get any actual work done tomorrow, I might have to start on this, just for kicks.
The odd thing is, I think I'm ok with things as they are. Yes, I'm lonely sometimes, but it's really not so bad. I have most of what I need, I'm making plans for my life, and I'm ready to leave much of my old life behind so I can move forward again. I need to be saying my good-byes right now, not tying myself down and forming attachments I will only have to abandon.
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