Not much to report today...last week was kind of rough. I didn't so much have a lot to do as I had zero motivation to do anything. I seem to lack focus in a really profound sort of way. I wish I understood what that I was about.
I feel very isolated and alone here for some reason. I miss Someone. I feel silenced. I have a lot of work to do, but I just can't seem to focus on it. You would think that focusing on school work would keep my mind too busy to worry about everything else, but it isn't. Maybe I need a job. Having some sort of income would be really nice, I'm just not sure I can bring myself to work in a crappy retail job for minimum wage. Somehow it feels as though doing that would rob me of my dignity. Which is just absurd, but there it is. Part time consulting work for my old job would have been ideal, but oh well.
Anyhow, I finished the crocheted scarf, knit another scarf, and have started on a little neckwarmer thing from the latest Knitty (the pattern is here) out of some left over yarn from my stash. Hopefully I'll be able to get a few other small things knit so I have less Christmas shopping to do. Being able to make most of the gifts for this year will be a very good thing, seeing as I can't really afford to buy any.
Being a student sucks. Well, ok, being a student is ok, but living off loans sucks. Maybe that's my problem, I feel very insecure and uncertain whenever I have to spend any money on even the stupidest things, and I don't know if I can deal with this for all 3 years.
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