Saturday, May 20, 2006

What in the hell am I doing?

So, I got my Con Law grade yesterday. It's...well...very demoralizing. I tried. I tried so hard...and it just wasn't enough.

Maybe I just don't want this enough. Maybe I don't have what it takes. I don't know. But whatever it is, it's just not enough. I am tired, I am lonely, and I did my best and it wasn't enough.

I don't know how much more I can give. I don't have anything much left, I can't pay rent or buy groceries, I left everything I knew and my life behind, and for what?

1 comment:

Bess said...

Oh I am so sorry. It certainly has been a hard hard year for you. This must be a dreadful blow.

But if you can think back on why you wanted to become a lawyer - why you wanted to make this move - perhaps you can find some hope there. It's not unusual to have to work harder than stones to get somewhere - just so long as you want to go there.

Here is a hug from the hinterlands.