Fading Away

Do you ever have days when you feel you are absolutely no consequence? The song from Chicago, Mr. Cellophane, comes to mind. I feel like this is what I am becoming. Just background fluff no one really notices.

School is disastrous but oh well. I don't want to be a lawyer anyway. At least not the kind of lawyer you see on TV and everyone assumes I want to be. There are plenty of other things I could do with a JD, but I have absolutely no motivation to get one right now. I have nothing to work for, no inspiration, no motivation. I cannot do this alone, and the more I try the more I realize that I simply cannot.

In other news, I finally recovered my big ugly vintage chair. It was never ugly, just suffering from sad, old and abused upholstery. It looks much better now, and someday when I have an actual job and money again (hah, more fairy stories, like Santa Clause and Unicorns and Gentlemen) I will pay someone to do it right but this will do quite nicely for now.

I've also decided to make a dress for Dickens. Right now, it looks like I will be able to go for the very last day. Hurray! The dress I wore last time around is really heavy wool and won't fit in my suitcase, so I need something portable. I've decided to do one of the Simplicty patterns, both for the sake of reviewing the pattern and also expediency. It's the gathered front day dress, I forget which pattern number. I found a really neat red and black woven checked fabric to do it with which I think will look really nice. It's a simple dress, but I'll wear some of my hand-knit lace cuffs and hopefully the lace collar I've been knitting for ever and that should dress it up nicely.

The only real problem is that knitting and sewing has become far more difficult to make my body do. It's not exactly painful, just really hard to force my hands and arms to do. A lot of things are starting to feel that way, and it scares me. A lot.

I guess we'll see what happens once the semester is over and I can get some actual rest (another thing that belongs in the same class as Unicorns and Gentlemen).