More obsessive knitting

I finished the little neckwarmer thing from Knitty last night. Hurray! It's actually quite cute, but I am not altogether happy with the way the flower is designed. I've worked out a different way, crocheting the center instead of using the stupid looped and twisted stitches which will pull out all over the place the moment you snag the scarf on something, like your jacket. These things are quick and fun to knit, so I've started another one and will continue figuring out modifications for the center of the flower.

Knitting flowers is way too much fun, sort of like knitting the little felt mice for the cat. I found a few other flower patterns on line last night, if nothing else this should be a good way to get some scraps of yarn used up. I think I'm going to try felting some of them too, and work out a few alternate neckwarmer designs.

I need to find a job. Maybe I'll write up some of the patterns I've worked out and see if I can segue that into some kind of small business. It's more labor intensive than I would like but I think once I get things up and running a web based business should be pretty easy to manage. Having no income at all is just exacerbating the stress I'm under as it is. Last night, as exhausted as I was, I ended up unable to sleep after talking to Someone and nearly falling asleep on the phone. It's not good. I have some hope that I get some sort of income producing venture to work out but without compromising what's left of my dignity, but if I keep having these restless panic filled nights, I'm not sure how long that will last.