It's done!

I have just now sent off my last and final law school application. Yay! I'm not altogether sure what I'm supposed to do now. Clearly, waiting will be a big part of it, but surely there should be some kind of ritual drinking or chanting, or something? At any rate, it's nice to have it all done and sent out. Now I can focus on other things.

Like getting rid of my creepy house mate. He is incapable of having an actual conversation about anything. It always turns into this huge Lets list all of Heidi's dysfunctions-fest, followed by a laundry list of every failure in housekeeping I have made in six months. Why in the hell would he think I want to live with that? Anyway, I asked him to start looking for a place last night, with any luck he won't give me too much more trouble about this. At least I have the building owner and the lease on my side so it should all be ok. I just really hate confrontational unpleasantness.

I need to work on that actually. Avoiding confrontation and unpleasant scenes really doesn't get one anywhere. Part of the problem is that when I get mad I cry, and that seems like a sign of weakness, which I want to avoid. So I avoid the confrontation altogether and nothing gets resolved and eventually I just kind of flip out and no one knows why, if they even know I've flipped out at all. It's a problem. I must try to be more assertive and confident and stand up for myself, and not be afraid of confronting people with things that bother me.

To that end, I suppose I might as well start on some new year's resolutions. I don't do it very often, but this seems like a good time to really focus on making some changes and working through some stuff, so here goes.

1 - Stick to the WW plan and get to lifetime. I have 7 pounds to go.
2 - Stand up for myself and be more assertive
3 - Clean my room and keep it that way
4 - Reduce my fabric stash by half
5 - Reduce my un-spun wool stash by half (note that 4 and 5 can be done by sewing and spinning the raw materials in question)
6 - Make a budget and stick to it. Include deposits to savings as a budget item.

I can do these things. Nothing here is out of my control or beyond my abilities. I just have to keep reminding myself that I can do these things.